everything is random

I’ve never been an athelete. I’ve never been much interested in sports, eve since I stopped playing touch-football with the boys, when I hit puberty. I’ve tried tennis. I hit the ball to high, too long, and way over into left field. I’ve tried softball. Thank goodness that ball is "soft" and big, because it felt just awful when it hit me in the eye. I tried running, but I couldn’t get anyone to chase me.

I tried swimming, but even thought I float like a cork, and have had numerous lessons, I can’t seem to get over the idea, that I’m really going to drown. Finally, I settled on walking, ad for a number of years, I walked 3 to 5 miles a day I realize that there is an Olympic sport referred to as "walking," but when I tried that, all I succeeded in doing was throwing my hip out.

I’m definitely NOT an athlete, but I mae do especially in my "mid-life" years, which brings a question to my mind. When did I hit mid-life? I remember when I hit thirty. I had to visit a grieft counselor, because I knew my life was over. I remember forty, I had to see a grief, counselor, the day after my frist child graduated from high-school and moved out of the house, because I knew my life was over. I remember forty-four. For some reason I thought my lfe was over. Then I hit fifty, and I was all excited, because I was able to join an organization called AARP. My husband was, espcecially, excited because he is younger than I, ad he got to join, too!

Fifty became the magic age. I knew that as long as I was in good health, in this day and age, I probably had a good fifty years ahead of me. Then came the asthma. O.K., I had that much earlier, but it only became life threatening after fifty. Then came the firbromyalgia. O.K., I had that earlier, but it’s not life threatening. Then came the arthritis, and, more recently, at fifty-five, came the diabetes.

Remembering the times that I thought that I would never love again brings back bad memories. Knowing that I was so afraid to get hurt again. I then became numb and I remember living my life like I was dead. No more emotions nor pain felt, but then you came into my life and loving you made my life change. My life has been filled with hope and love and because of you i learned how to love honestly. I learned how to forgive and forget. I then became a better person and like the song maybe its you. I know that its you that i’ve been waiting for all of my life. I love you more than my life and always remember that i will always love you forever.

I’ve just sneaked in my brother’s personal computer, for me to fill in my dull and boring moments, it pushed me to do the same routine: log in to my YM, check for updates of my friendster account, view my email messages, and suppose to be, spend again countless hours for my favorite online game. But this time, I wasn’t able to fulfill the last step. Well, blame it on the SPAMs which have passed through the securities of the web-mail service provider I’m using, and what’s more annoying; they’ve flooded my precious inbox, and each one of them have the same, common subject, “sex”. It was not the first time I’ve encountered these kinds of messages; I usually ignore and remove them right away from my storage. I don’t know, but there was some kind of mystery behind this phenomenon, so I followed the link that was provided in each message. About not more than 5 or 6 seconds, they revealed me reality.

I felt I was an arrogant, young teenage citizen of this pretentious society. Above all the achievements I’ve reached, considerably fame and popularity, different recognition of my hidden talents and skills, and a lot more things about success, I never thought I’m actually a “newb” of the real world I am living, all because of the webpage which popped out off the screen, showing me a nude picture of an Asian woman. She was with a naked male, traceable that the shot was taken after they’ve gone sex. I suppose this might not be new to the modern generation and may probably give them the thought, “ngayon ka lang nakakita ng ganyan?” Of course not! I used to be a curious teen, and an ultimate browser of pornographic multimedia, but that was a long time ago. I eventually stopped, since I was hooked on computer games. The reason why I was really shocked when I’ve seen the photo is because she was someone I knew to have the same social status as mine. She had skills, talents, brains and especially beauty, more likely to be considered as a top ideal woman. Suddenly, flashbacks of stories from different experiences shared to me by my friends kept playing on my memory. I never believed in them in the first place, because I have in my mind set that they can never do such things which are somehow related as the picture was showing, since they are indeed too young to be exposed to it, but I was wrong, completely wrong.

A face of a friend you knew, even with the most innocent-looking smile can be deceiving. Even granted with a top status, enrolled in an exclusive catholic school is not exempted from this reality. Now I’m in a total confusion, who am I to see as holy? Who am I to consider as “clean?” Are there any other teenagers, who have not yet experienced these things? Or should it mean, I may become one of them in the near future?

I can’t end up on a conclusion that I won’t share the same experiences, but I may have the guts to educate my co-teens, that this should not be the world we must face. Before, my father used to tell me, brides of most wedding occasions always wear white gowns, symbolizing purity. But what I’ve witnessed nowadays, they prefer to be dressed up on blue gowns, along with their sized tummies. Even sometimes, their flower girls are their daughters, and the ring or coin bearers, their sons. Aren’t these the usual events we are celebrating? What happened to the saying that “A woman must keep her virginity until the day of her marriage?”

We are being corrupted by false realities. We’ve already been used to a philosophical fallacy, that what we knew as “wrong” becomes “right”, for the fact that everyone else is doing it. Anyway, still, I wish to stand by my proposition, we must not forget about the “good” reality, we are not worthy of inheriting “evil.”

All my life I hid myself from believing, and the dreams I kept w/n me, den I met you and realized that dreams do take form and for me they took the form of young reality, a person whose a combination of everything that I dreamed of and now whose become everything I believe in .Today and always. You have become d believe and the hope within me.

Ever since, I always wanted to have a foreign friend. I mean those whiter guys whom I find stupendously slang. And whoa! The long wait is over. I met this old man thru my best friend. He looks very much younger than his age. And men, he’s a great conversationalist - inspite of his snoozing habit. Hahaha! The conversation lasted for 4 hours and I didn’t mean that I felt like peeing, hehe! He’s smart and funny! I’ll just wish that I would still have the chance to talk to him again before he’ll left Phils. And oh! To have some lasagnas. More more more!

With so many ways to save water, here are the highlights for 5 key actions to help you capture the water savings around your home.

1. Stop those leaks!

2. Replace your old toilet, the largest water users inside your home.

3. Replace your clothes washer, the second largest water user in your home.

4. Plant the right plants with proper landscape design and irrigation whether you are putting in an hew landscape or changing the current landscaping at your home. Select-plants that is appropriate for your local climate conditions.

5. Water only what you plants need.

Base on my learning on what I have read to the book the word stress is often used to describe external responses to them. Stress can be the result of trivial annoyances say for instances, driving in heavy traffic or a life-altering major crisis like the death of a loved one. Moderate levels of stress are thought to be good for you, stimulating the immune system and keeping your mind sharp. But high levels can cause you to become more susceptible to illness. It is thought that stress is a contributing factor in conditions such as ulcers, high blood pressure, asthma, and migraine.

There is even new evidence that suggests that too much stress can hasten the progression of chroinic degenerative diseases, such as rheumatoid arthritis. "Hidden stress" can be even more harmful to health because you are unlikely to address a problem that you don’t know exists.

Children are said to be the bearers of the coming generation. Thus general idea compelled the various institution in the society, including those that are found inside the homes, to simply define and address their concerns, food, education, clothing, shelter, and care, which constitute their immediate needs and translate into humanitarian obligation. Many have observed these obligation, but there are still some who continue to deny and refuse them. The government (or the non-government)

Today when I was on our school library I have read some article 4 ways to keep your anger from causing physical illness and now I want to share the 4 ways to all of you with my own learning on what I have read on the article.

Energy in a positive way. Expressing anger by lashing out only causes more tension in your body. It feels good temporarily, but in reality only adds to the problem. 

First - Physical exercise is a healthy way to release the energy and tension from anger. Take up jogging, do some aerobics or kick boxing. If exercise isn’t ppssible, try relaxation exercises such as deep breathing in hale to the bottom of your stomach, hold for a count of 5 and then slowly release by consciously relaxing in our muscles.

Second -  Adjust your expectations. You expected your marriage to last and your spouse to be around forever. Those are reasonable expectations and your anger is inderstandable. Youd need to get angry and get over it because to continue hoping that your expectations will be met-when your life experience tells you they won’t be-is irrational and with the hand you are dealt, and move on with your life.

Third -  Live in the present. Don’t look too far back and too far ahead. Constantly looking back at what you had means not paying attention to the present and what you have now that is of value. If you use all your emotional energy thingking about how things used to be, you will have no Energy left for today.

Fourth - Replace anger with Empathy. Understanding the motivation behind someone else’s actions can help alleviate the anger you steel toward that person. You may not agree with what he or she is doing, but delving into his or her reasons for doing it and under standing hisor her emotional frame ofr mind-helds you replace some of your feelings of anged with empathy.

Hope you like this article and I hope that you have learned something.

Love no matter how hard you find it. You won’t see it, no matter how hard you and you won’t get it. But when you’re about to give it up, it comes.  Sometimes the love we are looking for is right in front of us to close for the eyes to see. So, close your eyes and let your heart see itself. There are things you love to hear but you can never hear it from the person who says it with his heart. Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. There are so many stars in the sky, only some are radiant enough to be notice, among those you choose to ignore is the one who is willing to shine for you forever even if your glance remains elsewhere.